Goodbye Jen

Written upon hearing the news 12 January evening

Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!

The girl with mouth-nose mask and cloth cap covering her sparse hair. Jenielyn.  Has passed on.

Judy and I healed two girls morning last Friday and ang mukhang daw mapatay na (the one who looked as if she was dying), slumped lying down on the grey sofa is still alive.

The one who sat peacefully and so presently is gone.

“kinuha n ni papa jesus ung anak namin nung 12:30 am nung Wednesday” (Jesus already took our daughter) went her mom Mary Jane’s text message less than an hour ago.

This Wednesday.  Yesterday!

Jenielyn’s mom sounded like it was a long time away.  Maybe too many things have happened since her beloved daughter’s passing, so much work to do to prepare for the wake and burial.

7 years old. Leukemia.

So peaceful so elegant so regal days before she was to leave life here on Earth.

So ready I suppose kaya ganun na lang ang serenity she exhibited.

Beside her that almost-midday at PranaLAB, her mother looked so depleted, depressed, maybe already telling herself to surrender to what seems inevitable as she comfortingly assisted Jen who was feeling pain in her stomach (yet no grimace can be seen on her face nor complaining energy can be sensed about her, just a certain paunay sa tyan).

Atta girl!

I feel mocked by how immensely calm she sailed through her already-ending journey.  I feel I have indulged myself too much in my under-par 7^th period (based on the annual kabbalistic cycle) physical-emotional-mental condition.

But no matter.

I also honor myself in spite of my weaknesses.  I suppose I honor Jen more when I do that rather than start being hard on myself.

It seems clear my encounter with her was teacher-student and quite clear who the teacher was.

Teaching me that no matter how great my challenge is, there is no call for me to whine and act like I am having so much difficulty.  Peacefully with a light heart, that’s the way to go through life even faced with challenges.

Thank you Jenielyn that from that brief  encounter with you, you gifted me with an excellent example.  God bless you, my dear! Oh, please pray for us still continuing with our journey here on Earth.  Salamat dear child.